Aplomb

the yelling
ever growing and enlarging
into solitude its barging
ignoring thoughts and even prayers
uncovering my hidden layers
not to anyone with eyes
or ears or mouths spewing lies
but letting my subconscious know
how wrong my life has turned out so
its getting louder now you see
soon there will be no way to breath
it suffocates with screaming laughter
impossible to imagine an after
interminably it carries on
over. into. though. a song.
drilling deeper and never slowing
i wish i know where it was going
if not stopped soon it damn will end
and there will be no where left to send
my thoughts and dreams uninterrupted
its over now, they've been corrupted
no more thinking or mental working
not a lyric will be lurking
ive lost whatever kept me living
now im just you, but unforgiving